Thursday, November 15, 2018

Honest Jealousy



It’s so disheartening when the people who should be cheering for  you the loudest, remain silent. 
These are days where we need all the strength and courage we can get to run our race and finish our course. We have no time to waste or emotional bandwidth to spare, trying to convince those who should be for us to act as if they are. 
Don’t try and carry those who want to pull you down. 
Don’t waste time trying to convince others of your worth and value. 
Don’t expend valuable energy minimizing you so that others feel more comfortable around you. 
A smaller you does not make a bigger them. 
Don’t try to hang on to those who have let go of you. 
Don’t be controlled by those who won’t allow you to thrive and flourish. 
Make sure those closes to you are for you, talk to you not about you, are not jealous of you, not threatened by you, not intimidated by you, not wanting to leverage you, and don’t want to be you. You need them to be them and to bring out the best in you. 
Those closest to you are the ones that truly have the capacity to hurt or heal. Choose your circle wisely. (Thanks for posting this  image/wisdom @fwhatle)
As I read this quote from Christine Caine I think about my circle, my tribe, my posse, my clan.  Do we applaud when good things happen?  Do we brag about our friends accomplishments?  Are we encouraging, uplifting, positive?  I think not.  At least not all the time. There is envy and jealousy among the people in my circle.  I'm sad to say I am at fault.  I wish I was not this way.  I have prayed to my Father in Heaven to help me with this.  I love my peeps but yes I am jealous:  jealous of Karen' grandkids, jealous that Linda doesn't have to work, jealous of the skinny young girls at the YMCA, jealous of the people of TV that have homes at the beach.  But there is one thing that I am proud of...I am honest with my jealousy.  Karen knows that I wish I had grandkids, she is praying for me.  Linda is ok with my envy that she is retired, knowing that soon I can retire as well.  I don't think the skinny girls care about my extra pounds and the lucky folks at the beach are clueless.  They get up in the morning with no thought of what other people think about them, least of all me.  I'm not going to get a new circle, but I will try to be more good,  kind, and gentle with my group of friends.  I will keep praying for more compassion and less envy.  I know that I am not perfect, but I can try to be a little better each day.                          Galatians 5:22 - 23  The fruit of the Spirit is LOVE, JOY, PEACE, PATIENCE, KINDNESS, GOODNESS, FAITHFULNESS, GENTLENESS, and SELF-CONTROL.

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